Every Knee Shall AND WILL Bow...

This is all an observation that I have made for a few years now, and it will not be for everybody. If you don't want to hear what I say, stop reading now... If so cool! Thanks! I will tell you that these are my feelings, and this is my blog, and I can talk about whatever I want... For years on end, I have heard every excuse, under the sun, trying to disprove the existence of "god." From the "facts of science," or the ideas built on confusion, even as far as the anger because "He wasn't there," we have many a people who all have put aside faith and understanding, to go throughout life to try to show that there is nothing more than this life... Personally, I disagree with that, but its not about me... Its about how everyone who wants to disprove the power that we can not get rid of. That power is the fact that we all are guided by the want to follow something greater than us. Deny it all you want, but its true! We will always need something to make us feel "regular." We all need a god. Now a days, there are many gods running around the entire world. Some of them we give names to and we don't even know how to clearly define them. Some have names, and we can clearly define them, but we never want to admit that its more than an interest of ours. Honestly, there are more gods floating around than most want to ever admit. I'm going to list a few of them:

Drugs

Sex

Politics

Religion

Money

Music

Love

Relationships

Fashion

Being an asshole

Hate

Stress

Work

Lifestyle

Reputation

Lack of faith

Judgement

Alcohol

Science

Sports

Technology

Lying

Popularity

Rebellion

The list goes on and on and on... When you think about it, its amazing how many gods we serve. I'm not innocent in this, I see a lot of which I sing praises to all the time... But for anyone to go off and say that they do not believe in a "god," you are a fool. If breathing wasn't an automatic thing for most of us, we would be all about it as well... So, for anyone who says they are an "athiest," prove it. 

The Elephant In The Room...

Before I get started with this blog, I just want to let you know that I will try to watch what I say in the means of pointing the finger. I will not be using "I, me, or you" in this post, unless I am giving a personal example from my life, or an example from what I heard or saw from a friend.  What I have to say deals with an issue that needs to be addressed... Everyone of us has missed the boat, but I will show you where we did in my humble opinion. This is my blog, and I promise to try to not place blame, or throw any wood into the fire. I will not get into any political agenda, I will not get into religion, nor will I get into blaming anyone, or any situation. I will be breaking it down as real as I can, without it getting to be something where its just another opinionated person giving their 2 cents. With that said, lets get started

First off, my heartfelt condolences, and prayers goes out to the parents, of the 20 children that was murdered earlier today. I can never imagine a day like today if I was a parent, and I can't begin to try to console anyone who was directly affected. The loss of innocence, and the fear that was implemented by someone who was not well, did more damage that we will ever know. So, again, I pray for peace for the parents, and the loved ones of all the victims today. Such a sad day... Now to the meat of it all...

Today was a day that we never have wanted to witness, Just like Columbine, and the events in Aurora, CO, and Virginia Tech to name a few, its just another day where we like to give our opinions about the bad. We never want to see the lead up to any situation. A lot of people want to blame the events today on the "lack of gun control," or the "fact that someone sick got a hold of the weapons." And we also want to go as far to blame God for such evil, which is unfair to Him... But in all the fear and the anger, and the want to hold our kids more, we neglect to blame the people responsible for events like what happened this morning... And the ones to blame is US!!! Yes. Us! You, me, them, EVERYONE! We are all to blame for the events that happened today. Everyday, we like to keep our worlds as shut in and keep as many people out as humanly possible. We sit on the bus or train listening to our ipods, or pull up our itunes, on our ipads, and answer our iphones to talk to the people we know, or avoid talking to the person we don't, all the while we are missing the person right in front of us, or right beside us to just see how they are doing. I believe days like today could have been avoided if it was not for the lack of HUMAN INTERACTION. We have allowed technology to take away from us the means of being there for one another. If someone would have just talked to the young man, or just tried to be there, that wasn't family, I believe that we would be sitting here talking about a totally different subject. But because of what happened today, here we are, and I am touching the root of the TRUE problem with humanity. Everyone is quick to ask "Whats going on with this world?!" Well, I have the answer... It is the fact that we, as one human race, lack the balls to just go out of our comfort zone... we religiously go about our daily routines, in which we have it down to a damn near exact science. 6:30 wake up. 7:15 shower. 7:45 bagel and coffee: 8:15 SPEED TO GET TO THE HIGHWAY. 9:24 call boss tell him I'll be late for work. 9:45 finally show up... 1:45 lunch. 5:45 finally leaving 7:10 home... And in that time, how many people have we talked to that isn't in the office? How many bums or homeless guys have we passed, and lied to saying that we don't have a dime on us? How many times have we talked about, or added to the gossip of someone we don't even know? How many people that we say we will be there for, were we never to be found by them? The point is: We have all conditioned ourselves to follow some sort of weird protocol to protect ourselves. We are ALWAYS looking out for ourselves. We like to say things like "I stay on my grind!" or "Steadily hustlin to make this money!" And we expect for everyone to "like" our feelings for the moment... We have worked our way to making sure that WE look out for our individual selves... We encourage our kids not to talk to strangers (which is not a bad thing), and pull them back when a man or woman who may appear unsightly. When we walk down the street now a days, instead of looking ahead, we look down. If a person happens to smile at us, we just keep our heads down and keep moving... We have all conditioned ourselves to fear any and everything that we do not know.

As I said before, we have allowed technology to kill human interaction... When was the last time we made a call to a loved one, and not sent a text? When was the last time, we did not get on Facebook, Twitter, or any other social network site? We like to post about what we are doing, and brag to everyone who is missing out on the "good time" that is being had currently. We also LOVE to post pictures of sayings that someone else came up with, and "agree" with what is said, by "sharing" and "liking" said bullshit saying...  Technology is taking us all away from the things that use to matter like getting to know our neighbors, or introducing ourselves to a stranger. We are so afraid to allow our circles to open up, that we don't even want to sit in the chair directly next to the person in the chair next to us at the movies... We always like to sit a few chairs away... right? We like to go to the malls to people watch, and pass judgement on this or that person for whatever they are wearing that moment, correct? How is this going to change?

I honestly believe that in order to avoid tragedies like the events that happened in Newtown, Connecticut, we all have to step out of our comfort zones... What I plan on doing is going out 2 nights a week, and learning about 2 new people. No matter where I meet them, and no matter if I get the cold shoulder... if I get it, OK  At least I tried... If change is to happen, it needs to start with the individual, and not the people we elect... And anyone and everyone who is all about gun control, be so! But realize that this country has been built on the right to protect our freedoms by any means necessary. For those of us who believe that God had something to do with it, He didn't... Personally, the one attribute that has me falling in love with God the way I do, is the fact that he gave US ALL free will. Any God who is willing to allow us to chose yes or no, right or left, up or down, right or wrong... So, if anyone wants to blame God, case is not valid. God does not allow the orchestration of evil. You can not convince me of that ever, I don't care if you believe or not.

I apologize about the soapbox moment there, but some things needed defending. We definitely need to work on being human, and not trained robots allowing our phones, our agendas, our "lives" to get in the way of being decent human beings! It can, and it needs to change! We have to take the effort to extend an honest and loving hand of help to anyone who may be in need. If its a bum, give him the measly change that is jingling in your pocket, or a dollar or something... If its a "creeper," let ourselves be known to them! Maybe they aren't creepy at all! Maybe they are just attracted to you... you can tell them no if you want, but get to know who they are... Make a friend before the movie, or before the game, or before the concert... You already have one thing in common with that person... We just have to do better by ourselves. We have to start taking better care of each other by just simply smiling. Show that you care! Make someones day better by just being kind... We can not allow another killing of 20 kids and 7 adults to happen again... we can't allow 22 more kids to get stabbed again... WE, no matter color or creed, AS ONE BEING, NEEDS TO BE WILLING TO TRY TO MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE! It does not start with complaining to the higher ups... it starts by us trying to become humans again... Maybe, our first collective step should be to turn the phone off in public. We don't need to take pictures of our food, our drink, our friends... We should just enjoy the company. Let's try that out for a while.

I do hope you get what I am trying to say in this blog, and I hope you are willing to share my thoughts with your friends and family around the world! By no means am I trying to make you abandon the loved ones we have grown to love, but we just have to try to make being human something more than a proverbial now a day rarity. I also stand by what I said... If I didn't I wouldn't have put it in this blog. If you agree or disagree with what I said, cool! That's your opinion, but, it will NEVER change mines, and I do hope you respect that. Its been nearly a year since I have done one of these, and it feels DAMN good to be back. Thanks for reading, and I hope that this motivate one of you to break the current trend of being about ourselves, and actually start to care about our fellow human beings out there. And when we do, lets leave all the politics, and all the religion out of it. Let's just be friends with differences.  ALSO, by no means am I trying to make ANY company out to be the bad guy, I'm just naming products to show how small our worlds have become as individuals. Let's not allow another tragedy to realize how precious our lives are. Let't now allow our selfishness to get in the way of being semi decent humans, WORLD WIDE! We have to allow pebbles to be pebbles, and not turn them into boulders like we did with a certain chicken company, in comparison, that should not have mattered ever, ya know? Instead of feeding the hate, lets at least find a way to agree. All in all, we just need to find a way to slow life down, and allow ourselves to love someone new.

I will never hate to see you go.

New Year... I swear it was May just 3 days ago. Apparently it's December, and it is also the last day of the year. Its amazing how time just flies when you are having fun, and are miserable. This past 12 months was just one big blur full of emotional let downs, revealing truths, focused decision making and happiness all around. With losses and gains, the balance of this road that made up 2011, has been one to remember, and to forget. It all started in January when I learned that the night of the Little Dragon show, my friend Ayanna Bell committed suicide. That threw me for a loop. March was a heavy month. I lost a friend, and my Uncle Billy to a massive heart-attack. My friend John Strickland lost his battle with cancer. I ended up a couple of weeks later losing my job. Lost it because my "potential" was showing its ass... but, what can you do? I have had 2 other jobs since, and I ended the year jobless... I started school, and I cant be happier with that decision. Life as I know it has FINALLY begun because I am actively going for what I want to do... I am chasing a dream. I lost my Grandfather to cancer in June. It happened just before South Carolina caught the 2nd out of the College World Series final game against Florida. And the week after Thanksgiving I lost my Uncle Frank. This has bee a year of loss for me, but that's just half the story... The Good is all the friends that I have. My friends have been the greatest thing in my world. They were there to help me find a job, they were there to help me to keep motivated through school. They have paid for my beers and food, given me tickets to Braves and Falcons games, I am beyond thrilled that I have been able to have good people around me. I want to thank you all for all you have done. If it was calling to see how I was, hanging out, whatever it was. you were there, and I thank you for it. :) So now that is all out of the way, 2011 was not a great year for me, and that is evident if you know me. But because it wasn't a good year doesn't me that there wasn't plenty of good moments. I went to Athens, GA for the first time, and I saw my Gamecocks win on the road. THAT was magical. I also got to hang out with my friend and his family for the day, That was fun. Watching my cousin get married, that was great, the whole time with both families, when both sides lost someone dear to all of us, that was great. The fact that I got to be around family, was amazing. Going to Braves games, sitting out in the hot ass sun on Memorial Day, watching my friend get tazed and walk away, LITERALLY walk away from it. He was tazered, and pulled the ends out, and walked away from it... never seen anything like that in my life. THAT was amazing, Going to Opening day of the Falcons, And just being able to go to school! This year, as shitty as it was, was worth it all. So, I say to you 2011, Thanks. You made me stronger mentally, and spiritually. Although you were bad, you were probably the biggest blessing I needed. So as happy I am to see you go, One last toast to you. 2012, treat me and my family and friends good... WE ALL NEED A BREAK! :) Happy New Years, guys!

The Cold Allows Me to Smile

If there was ever a time to where God commands your attention, Fall and Winter is that time. With world slowing down and sleeping after a long summer, and the beautiful blue skies, the green and lush trees and lawns, and the warm golden sun, it is around this time that when you look up into the wide expanse that makes up the sky, you can finally focus on whats there... Tonight, there is a full moon, and stars all around... If that isn't seeing God, then I don't know what is... Not a sound outside but the sureness of the quiet that makes the cold season, Only thing you feel is the cold, and there is no better motivator, in all the world than the cold. Once you feel the pain, you have to find a way to get warm, and no better way to focus on whats important at the time, than the seasons to come... It is exactly as if God is saying to us... just slow down, and rest. I love this this time of the year... It is definitely my time to slow down refocus, give thanks and praise, and enjoy the people that matter--family and friends. This is the time where the ones you love, and love you, needs you the most... This is where you find the warmth that was taken by the turning of the earth. The warmth is not electrically charged, it is within, and its within the love that you have for each other. So, for those who hates to be cold, I can understand. Being alone with no one to love can be cold and heart breaking. Something that I do not want to experience. With that said, I am thrilled, and blessed, to have the friends and family that I do. Without them, winter would be no fun. All winter would be will be a time of loneliness, despair, and hopelessness. This time of the year was made for us, not to look sexy in our winter gear, not for us to cheer religiously at our favorite teams, not for us to think about what we want for Christmas, nor what we want to do for New Years. Winter is made for us to become closer to each other as a family, and as friends. So take the time to really make an effort to see friends, and family. A handshake in passing or a hug before a nice conversation with coffee or booze, just make sure that you warm the one thing that is important-- your heart. Now do you understand why I love this time of the year?

NO DOMESTIC OR WILD ANIMALS ALLOWED... anymore

I don't want to own animals anymore... I don't want to adopt a dog, take in a stray cat, I don't want to deal with them anymore... Do I love animals? of course I do! I love my dog, and my 2 cats, but if and when I move out of this house, I will not own an animal when I'm by myself... I'm sick of the responsibility that comes with it, and most importantly, I'm sick of hearing everyone talk about them... When did it become fashionable to talk about your dog or cat as if they are children? When did animals become more important than people? Its like everyone wants dogs and cats more than children, as if its going to be cheaper to take care of them more than one child... It appears that a dog is a lot more work than a child, but what do I know? I don't have a child, and I hate taking care of my mothers animals... but, I know, and accept that I'm in the minority in this ideology. Just because, I don't want animals, I'm not going to discourage anyone from having one, and being loving to those animals, I just don't want to ever own another one myself... I know when I have children, they may want to have one, and I will most likely get them a dog, or a cat... But now a days, I have been turned off watching everyone bring there dogs around with them, feed them anything, cause of there birthday, and treating them, as if they are the most precious thing in the world... not my style... I do not want a dog or a cat, after this... and I don't need to think about this decision. I don't want to have an animal ever again... Another reason why I don't want one one ever again, is the fact that everyone has turned into such a fan, after it became such a crime when people fought them... but in nature, animals kill other animals for food... people who fight dogs are the worse for training these dogs to do that, but, there are people who are out there who his holding his or her family hostage with mental, physical, and spiritual abuse... I don't see you going to there house, or outside of there pressers with signs... There are people who has severe depression, or addictions that need help, I don't see you going to there aid, but one a puppy has a bad haircut, there you are ready to put up a fight... ITS A FUCKIN DOG!!! I know a lot of you may read this and think that I hate animals. I don't. I love dogs and cats... again, I just don't want one anymore... Society has put too much pressure on owning an animal, that I just don't want to go through it again... Don't get me started on the ASPCA commercials with Sarah McGlothlin, and shivering animals... Owning a dog or a cat has become a religion... and I'm not a fan of it. Don't want to do it anymore. I don't want doggie play dates, or go to a groomers, or own chewed up toys, or a house that smells like animals live here... I just cant see myself ever owning another animal with all the pressures of having one, and everyone falling in love with them because of one person being the victim of being famous... I am not a fan of it at all... I am going to love the ones I have, and when I'm done with that, I don't want anymore...

We flipped the switch

And for the second time this year, the American public is in an uproar about the judicial system of this country... Am I surprised? I definitely am not... The people who are in an uproar are the same people that elected these people to power! Come election time, instead of just voting for whoever have the better name, or whatever, actually try to learn about these people, and know how they operate... Get to know these people that are to uphold the law. If you want justice done to those who did wrong, and for those who were wronged, then make sure you elect the people who want to uphold the law. Where am I going? Well, let me start from the beginning... Casey Anthony this year, left her daughter to die, as she went to party, and she left the body to rot in the car for like 4 days or something, then went on to finally dump the body... she got off scott free... Troy Davis, was another victim of being at the wrong place at the wrong time... He was accused of killing a cop, and 9 witnesses said he did it. Convicted and was given the death penalty. And for the last year or so, people realized that this man is possibly Innocent. With 7 of the 9 people recanted on there witness, and with so many holes in the whole story, the justice system has failed in the eyes of a lot... But lets think... did it? This is from my friend who posted on my comment from earlier:



Jarrett...I will tell you that this case was under review when I worked at the Parole Board. It was when all of the execution hearings began. I also know that there is a lot of information that people are unaware of and they are only basing their opinions on what they have heard or read in the media. This case, as all death penalty cases are, was looked over by several different justice agencies. I know the current parole board members to be kind-hearted people who would not be able to lay their head down at night if they had let an innocent man die.

My friend is right... What is it that we don't know? What is it that the media is actually not telling us? What are the things that we don't know? There is more going on than what the Media wants to tell us. The media, just like us, pick and chooses what we know and don't know, and we all fall victim to it. I'm not saying, that Troy Davis is or isn't a victim of circumstance... I'm not going to say that Casey Anthony is truly innocent, or guilty... but I know that to every story, there's a side that no one brings up... And as much as it may feel wrong, that an innocent man dies, and a guilty young lady walks free, its no ones fault but ours...

As I have stated before, and often, I DESPISE politics. I don't find it enjoyable to talk about, because, everyone wants to install fear when talking about it... "If we don't elect this person, this will happen!" Well, what if we do elect that person, and that person doesn't come through? Sounds familiar right now, don't it? "CHANGE" was suppose to happen... we appear to be in the same river of shit as before... Only thing that changed was the color of the leader... you got what you asked for. So, how do we combat the problem that we face now? How do we make everything work for us? How do we get the system to work for us all? Its a really simple idea... fallow me here... Instead of electing something different because of color, lets elect the right person for the job. I don't care if you agree with all of there ideals, or choices, lets elect the best person for the office. If someone has a great idea to have families get a discount on everything, but is a satanist and hates life as a whole, but the other guy is just the opposite in everything the satanist believes in, Id vote for the guy who best fits what I believe, even if its not the most popular... I know the example is really out there, but it gets you thinking...

Lets go back in time... lets go back to 2009. This is when I first learned of the war in Mexico that is killing kids, separating families, and drawing more Mexicans to come to our country in fear of there lives and families lives... Since the all the Cartels in Mexico has corrupted the country. Officials, and police officers were bought off, while these assholes run the streets of Mexico, killing families, having out right wars in the middle of the streets. Innocent kids are catching grenades, and men and women are being enslaved to work for these creeps, just so that Hippie McIwannagethigh, gets his fix... The selfishness lies in the people who wants to legalize any drug. People are living in Anarchy, so we can get high... How fuckin selfish are you!? We all want to march and be upset about human rights, and equal rights in THIS country, but not in the world... No wonder a lot of the athletes before the Summer Olympics didn't want to participate... people were moved out of there homes, and they were destroyed for the whole Olympic village and stadiums to be built... that's fucked up! But whats more fucked up is that we all want to get a high that we will never achieve, EVER again... We also, like to bullshit ourselves into thinking that its "so good for us." Its not only destroying a country, its destroying our lives, AND our families... But we don't care about them, unless we get what we want-- that yay! that sticky icky! that snow, that powder, that blow!

Another innocent man dies, another guilty person walks free...

When will the cycle stop? When will we all just finally take it upon ourselves to stop the marching, and the protesting, and actually get off of our asses and actually CHALLENGE the system that we put ourselves in? When will we finally learn from the mistakes of our dumbass choices? When will be finally wise up in life? Is it too late to? If anything we need to learn from this year of bullshit, is that we need to CLEAN IT UP!!! Again, I am not going to go around and telling you who to vote for, but I will tell you to be wise in your choices... ACTAULLY DIG IN AND FIGURE OUT WHO THE FUCK YOU WANT TO BE YOUR LEADER!!!

The only way that things will change is if we do it all with a clear and sober mind, and actually do some research... wait. Im starting to repeat myself... goodnight.

Offended?

I don't know where to begin, or even how to begin when it comes to this subject, but I will try my best to convey my feelings about it all, in a respectful manner all around... Before I continue, I will let you know, that this will be a very rare blog for you to read. this is probably the only time you will see me use this word as many times ever. I don't use words that I don't like... I like the word "hate," cause its a genuine emotion. I don't like the word "stupid." but, I use it as an adjective to an adjective... usually yelling at an athlete when I use it, saying "YOU STUPID SHIT!" so, its not a good word, but I do use it... But the one word that I use VERY little, although, society, in this modern pop culture says that "I have all the rights to use it." I am just not a fan of the word, or the attitude that it carries... Why is it for one group of people to use the word, but not for everyone? Its becoming more common place and its starting to loose its sting amongst the masses... With rappers and black actors using the world in there everyday, it makes it hard for this generation to not know how far we have come to try to avoid that word ever being used... But now a days, its just common place.

Nigger is a dirty word. It didn't start off as a dirty word, because, it was a tree that was difficult to cut or break. But it was used back when the slave boats came all the way from over here to over there, and that's how they described the Africans that they traded for... And over the centuries, it became common place, and when you're out numbered, you had to take it... But as the revolution began, that word started to offend... and somewhere after Martin Luther King Jr. was assassinated, and when rap went mainstream to the shit that it is now a days... and you look at any face, and they can say the word "nigger" with no worry of consequence... Well, back in August, my friend experienced being called one for the first time... didn't sit well with him... it wouldn't have been an issue, if he wasn't making an ass of himself throughout the time we were where we were... So, story is, he had some white guy start pointing at him, and saying "I want a piece of that little nigger there." cops were called, another buddy was tazed, walked away, and everyone who held on to any sobriety, was embarrassed... we laugh now, but still... its not a laughing matter, when you're offended...

By the way, in any form you want to put it "Nigga, Nigra, Nigg, Wigger," its all going under the same title as "nigger." And that word has been put out there for everyone to use. Like I stated in the first paragraph, You watch any most black movies, or Quinton Tarantino film, Listen to any rapper who isn't white, except for Kid Rock (listen to the song "Black Chick, White Guy"), the word is prevalent... Its amazing, that we like to fight for freedom of speech with words as "nigger," but when it comes to talking about Christ, you cant say SHIT! Bring up Jesus, its offensive... but you say the word "nigger" its funny... I can count on my fingers and toes, and run out of all, to count how many times I've heard the word "nigger" come out of my co-workers mouths... directed to me, indirected to me, either way... what is now common place, is REALLY OFFENSIVE!!! But, like I tell people, I see myself as a rock at the bottom of the river... I take shit and just allow it all to hit me. I just stand there and take it... When I was called a nigger directly, it was after I saved this guy from getting his ass stomped by the entire bar... he said something about gays, and how they allow them in here, and over heard by a friend of mines, and it got heated, and Kelvin was on the bar, and then the girls went behind the bar, and the guys are trying to hold Kelvin back, and I'm trying to step in the way so these fucks could get out in one piece, and when he was in the parking lot, he goes off and starts saying "they allow fags in that bar! Fuck this place!" then he looked at me, after I saved him from being beaten down, and says "Fuck you too, nigger!" I just laughed, cause, you can call me everything you want under the sun, but if you call me that, and you proceed to try to put your hands on me, that's when shits going to end with everybody upset...

But, the same goes for people who use the words "faggot, and little people (yes. little people is an offensive term for me, because, the scientific term that is used is midget)" If you use the words out of context, then its wrong no matter how funny it may be. and that goes for everyone... Black, white, red, brown, yellow, whatever shade of human you are, you should never use anything to offend. it just shows weakness on your part... If you cant find a way to piss someone off outside of being offensive, then you have not real reason trying to be rebellious... and as humans, we cant become one body, when we are all trying to drag each other down to the same level of shit... Using the word "nigger," holds us back 12 years... we need to move forward as a people, and start being uplifting in love, and not generically calling us difficult to be with or around... I just dropped some knowledge on you... goodnight.